So I hit another milestone today.  2 more pounds to make 15 pounds!!!!!!!  I was at work and Beverly says, "You are gunna have to buy a belt Elizabeth!!"  That felt so good!!!  Off to the PUNK SHOW with Tommy, Dan, and Carla.  Hello Weekend!!!!!


I was getting ready today and put on one of my favorite shirts.  And I looked at myself after I put the shirt on. And...... I finally noticed my weight loss.   It felt good to see the weight loss.  It was there!!! Not a huge change but a change I could see.  Woooo Hoooo



I had a great weekend.  As I posted Friday, last week was very crazy.   Friday night I ended up going to bed early and getting some much needed rest.  Saturday I decided to put work out of my head for the day and went to see the movie Black Swan and then listened to some wonderful blues at Mother Duncans.  I had a very yummy chicken sandwich.  Grilled chicken, roasted red peppers, arrugala, and tomato.  YUMMY!!!!!  It was so good and Tommy's was too that we tipped Robert the cook.   So today I spent the day working.  I am trying to prepare for my review in Paducah which is likely any day now.   I have worked today and have been working all this month to prepare.  It is never Perfect, never Exactly the way I'd want it.  Never 100%.  But what is?  Who am I kidding?  All I can to is the best I can.  That is kind of the moral of Black Swan, just do you best.  You can't be perfect.  You will make yourself crazy trying to be.  Does that mean don't care?  No! But it does mean.  Do the best you can and be satisfied with that at the end of the day.  I realize my diet is the same way.  in the past I would try to be perfect with my diet and when I would backslide I would give up rather than just saying, "Today is a new day I am going to strive to do better today."  Have I had moments of weekness while on this weightloss journey...Yes!  But then you move on.  If I eat too much at lunch, I eat less at dinner.  If I really want to eat that candy bar, I give up something at dinner.  I leave you tonight with some quotes on perfection.  

The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.

They say that nobody is perfect. Then they tell you practice makes perfect. I wish they'd make up their minds.

 “The artist who aims at perfection in everything achieves it in nothing.


This was a crazy end of the week work wise and I found myself flipping out just a little.  But today for 4 hours I had one of the most relaxing experiences of my life.  Tommy gave me a morning of relaxation at the essential day spa in Murray.  It was wonderful.   I had a steam, 1 hour massage, manni, peddi, and brow wax.  It was WONDERFUL.  I still found myself stressed afterwards with work.  And then I realized. STOP! Chill! It is a job!!!! The world isn't coming to an end.  Chill Out!  So ... I did :) And I feel much better.  This is going to be a great weekend!  Oh yes... and I lost 2 more pounds!!!!   


"Do your own thing on your own terms and get what you came here for!" 

I added the weight loss pictures section and had said I would be posting each time I lost ten pounds.  I took several pictures Friday and Saturday but I wasn't happy with them.  I didn't see enough difference.  I felt frustrated.  I felt down.  Then I realized.... Im not ready for this.  I'm not ready to post a full length picture.  For years I have been reliying on headshots of me and great angles to avoid the truth about my weight gain.   But this morning it came to me.   This is all up to me.  I am the one doing this blog.  I dont have to put up a picture yet.  So What!!!  This weight loss and everything about it is on my terms.   So new rule... I am going to post a weight loss picture at 20lbs lost.  And if when 20 pounds lost gets here and I dont want to post a picture.  That will be ok too!! :) My dad has this saying, "Everything is gunna be allright" and it always makes me think of the Bob Marley song.  So I am leaving you with a little Marley.  

Three Little Birds...
Don't worry a-bout a thing, 'cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right.
Singing': "Don't worry about a thing, 'cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin'; smiled with the risin' sun.
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; saying,
"This is my message to you-ou-ou.”

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right."
Sayin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin'; smiled with the risin' sun.
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; sayin',
"This is my message to you-ou-ou."

Meanin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing,
oh! Ev-ry little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
‘cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Meanin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause every little thing
gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
"Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing ‘sgonna be all right."

(Baby) Don’t worry about a thing,
'cause ev’ry little thing gonna be all right.